Baby on the Loose

Argh! She's off! :D
Bless my little girl will not keep still, its she's not bum shuffling, she's crawling backwards or in circles, If she's not doing that she's pulling her self up on draws sofa's legs and hands and thing in reach of her hands.
Oh the wonderful life of baby proofing. I just need some advice on how to do so. and the moneys to do so.
OH and she is having fun shouting and talking today, with the hysterical laughter, and she just screamed at me to get attention, I think not little one

Kiara is nearly 8 months old now, shes crawling backwards and around in circles, Shes attempting the forward crawling mainly today. If we hold her hands out she'll grab hold of them, pull herself up and walk. or walk on her knees. Shes my little sod. Can't leave anything on the floor with out it being hers and in her mouth :D!
Her First word was 'Ah Dada dada da" (So Dad). She also says, Mama, Nomnom when hungry, Nana and nini.
Shes on 3 meals of baby rice foods a day, although at the moment shes ill so 3 spoons and a lot of boobie. Speaking of boobie she wants some now.
I want my boobs back, I've joined the gym to see if I can get my body back too. But this week I haven't been cause of me and Kiara being ill, Plus I found out yesterday that my mum has been in hospital most the week ( mum usually looks after Kiara while I go. Going to see if Sam will look after her tonight and maybe for a bit tomorrow, if I'm lucky...

Screaming....

Last night was not nice screaming baby and all for burps

Sorted life and Sorting life...

So... Update, My & Sam are back together, things are working really well, I think we needed that break to realize what we truly wanted.  I'm getting out a bit, I think I just want quiet a bit more me time, its a hard thing being a mother, I feel as if i have to get certain things done for the day, the little things get boring and it makes me tired easily, I Like routine but when I feel stuck in the house having to do that same thing I don't want to be doing it. It would be so much easier to have a maid in the house or someone else doing the house work, it would take a load off my back if I didn't have to do it, give me chance to get other things done enjoy my fun of the day go out and me and Kiara can enjoy our time together and her not to be stuck in a chair or on the floor while I'm trying to get house work done.
Update on Kiara, well apart from her being so bloody gorgeous, shes starts babbling a lot more we've manage to get 'Dad da' and 'did did' out of her a lot, Sam was playing Guitar to her and she just went on Dad Da Dad Da, I think I saw it coming anyway. she says 'Nom nom nom' when eating.
I'm weening her have been for about a month I believe shes loving it.
She loves her Bananas, pears, apples, peaches, porridge,  cauliflower and broccoli cheese, carrots. most of this I either steam the mush up or its in baby rice boxes.

Every thing feels great otherwise, I've applied for college on a floristry course, my Best Friend Tian started buying me flowers and making them herself and I became very interested I've started planting my own plants too, giving my self a few easy hobbies I can have with madam mardy bum.
I'd like to have more time to myself, time to go to the gym or have a relaxing bath to pamper myself. just an hour a day would help. Hmm...

In It For Her?

Well.... over a week ago Me & Sam broke up, it was a Mutual agreement, We've both be drifting apart for a while now, I want love and attention, to be able to hug and kiss someone with out having to ask them ans get told no. So over this week it has been so confusing. we done it a few times but he said he's not 'in love' with me anymore but loves me, But I think he loves me only because I'm the mother of his child, but I don't want that to be the reason he loves me.
There is so much I want from a relationship, but I don't seem to have it anymore.
so now it seems its me not wanting this anymore, my mind is all over the place so I went to my best friend Tian for advice and she gave me my own advice that I had given her a while ago. Lol. It was to write a list of the Pros & Cons of being with Sam.
and there's more Cons, the was what three Pros and like nearly ten Cons. Now I'm confused what to do even though when I was talking to my best friend it just sound like I didn't want this any more. Then this morning Sam comes onto our bed (he's not sleeping in the same bedroom as me). and then Kiara woke up so I put her in between us and that was like a moment. mummy daddy and baby, made me Feel like I wanted it but Only for Kiara I liked the Feeling but, now it doesn't feel so right. So I'm going to have to tell him at some point because now I don't feel Like I'm 'in love' with him.

Rashes

Kiara and Rashes, oh how they make me panic, but now I'm come to the point of not panicking to much unless its all over the body, or the glass test shows up. I've been in and out the doctors with rashes on her, even went to the hospital once, most of them turned out to be prickly heat. 1 could of been an allergic reaction. This time it looks like Eczema, I rang the doctors to speak to someone and the nurse passed a message on saying I don't know what it its but it may just be milk spots. I think I'm right on saying its eczema, I didn't even tell the nurse what it looked like. Pfft! Doctos and nurses are terrible these days.

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Her smile...

I'm so happy I have her, 9 months was too long waiting and now I see myself watching her sleep, and those little smiles creeping up whilst she peacefully sleeps, then those little whimpers likes shes had a bad dream, makes me smile and feel sorry for her at the same time.  It all comes hard to me with her but all it takes is for her to smile at me and all the bad things seem to go away. she's my comfort when I'm upset, even If I do cry more because of thinking to myself ' If I ever lost her it would break my heart so much, I wouldn't know what to do' 
watching all the little things she does each day still amazes me, from the day she was born putting my finger in her hand and her griping it tight, to her now moving her hand to grab things from us. Those giggles when playing with her make me laugh too, to know shes happy. her mirroring things we do and learning something new ever day. I enjoy this so much.

I first became a mother on the 23rd of October 2009, to a Beautiful baby girl named Kiara. Labour went pretty well I think, ha. it was an emergency c-section. 9hours, I wasn't dilating and I had pre-eclampsia, a week over due she was. at first I was going through it fine, then I felt like I wanted to push and it definatly wasn't time to. so Sam, my Fiancee, asked the midwives about getting me some pain relief. 'Gas&Air' oh my it's a life saver, even if I was taking it when the contractions had finished. any way lets skip all the labour talk. When the took her out all I heard was her Cry, and that was it I knew my baby girl was here and alive, and I cried as soon as I heard her cry. It was definitely the happier time of my life. I had Sam by my side the whole time (minus when he got some thing to eat).
She was born at 11.11pm. 6 long days I was in the hospital, up and down from the labour suite and ward.  If my blood pressure went to high I'd be in the labour suite so that I had some one monitoring me all the time. then when it went back down to a suitable number I'd be back on the ward, where I hated it. If you wasn't of ethnic oriagin they didn't want to know that much. I found it quite annoying, but I must say Looking after Kiara in the hospital seemed quiet easy, I had the nack of things, watching everyone out the hospital window made me realise how busy life is out there, everyone rushing to appointments or to collect the child. I was enjoying the slow life inside hospital, because it was just me and Kiara I had to focus on, then Sam, family & friends who came in. I didn't have to cook or clean, just relax, well I say relax try to.
Once I came home the whole place felt alien, not like home it took me a few days to start settling in. thats when everything seemed to get harder at home, I was ringing family to double check things that I new the answer to, but just to make sure, that little bit of reasurance helped.